I don’t mean to be a bit on the gloomy side- But honestly, my life has never been this fucked up. I have no one to go to and tell these things too, so it kind of all just builds up, and I’m seriously afraid of the thought of all of my problems just boiling up and erupting like a volcano one day. I’m 16, things should be easier, I should be happy. I mean what the fuck, what ever happened to all that “oh it’s the best years of your life” bullshit? Because contrary to popular belief, it fucking sucks. I remember when I was like, 8 years old, and the thought of being 16 seriously made me excited beyond belief. I thought life would be like it is on tv shows. Sure, one jackass fucks up your day, and you’ve got this awesome group of friends to run too, that actually care. School days over? Jump in your friends car and blast music and just laugh for no god damn reason. Bell rings, and it’s passing time and you actually have people to stand with. Or parties. Or fun get togethers, or venturing out, or…anything. But LOL, no. Not at all, you’re lucky if you have one friend who’s actually real, and there for you, that doesn’t go behind your back and tell everyone your business and say rude shit. I’ve just never been this unhappy and confused. And alone.